Angel K Will

The Sunday night following Groundhog Day had me thinking about the Bill Murray classic movie “Groundhog Day.” If you’re an X’er or older, surely you’ve seen it. If not, what are you waiting for?

Good point, read this blog first. 🥰

So, here I am, entering client project details for the previous week worked, prepping new projects for the coming week. Crossing things off my personal to-do list, adding new things on. Basically recycling last week’s info into a new time frame. Repeating patterns day in and day out. And that’s fine. Repetition is part of life. BUT… awareness is also important.

Is what I’m repeating what I want to be repeating? Am I repeating in a static motion, or am I repeating in a directional motion? Ideally upward, not downward.

After all, progression is what makes repetition worthwhile. Tho it’s repeating, it’s building as well. Like pressure within a volcano. Hopefully in preparation of good things to come—sometimes a gentle flow, sometimes a grand eruption. Oh, the excitement!

Over the weekend, I also watched the documentary “What the Bleep Do We Know?!”

Had me thinking about how we create good habits/beliefs. And how we overwrite ill habits/beliefs? Again, repetition (practice) is key. It’s the special ingredient for creating our habit/belief “recipes.”

Have you every heard the phrase “thinking + feeling = action?” I agree with it from a reactive state (programming), AND I also think we can create the feeling (be proactive) based on intentional thinking and intentional action. And, for that matter, we can also create the thought by choosing our feeling and choosing our action (not only in the 3D world, but also in our imagination). In actuality, I doubt the order matters. They do all get blended in the “recipe.” What’s important is the quality of the “ingredients.” What thoughts, feelings, and actions am I choosing? Are they neutral, positive, or negative?

This is crucial because my habits/beliefs determine the quality of my life.

I move through each day making choices based on my ingrained habits/beliefs, sending my life on a trajectory. The good choices will evolve me (thinning the veil), toward my highest self (God within). The ill choices will devolve me (densifying the veil), toward my lowest self (at best—God ignored out of ignorance; at worst—God resisted out of arrogance).

Merriam Webster’s definitions…

EVOLVE, verb (process)
: to produce by natural evolutionary processes / *re-unionizing (coming back into Oneness) with God (full and perfected: knowledge (soul) and wisdom (spirit) leading to understanding (Christ-consciousness; 2 becoming 1))

DEVOLVE verb (process)
: to pass on (something, such as responsibility, rights, or powers) from one person or entity (*highest self, internal state of self-responsibility) to another (*lowest self, internal state of victimhood)

*italics mine

“If you can’t control your emotional state, you must be addicted to it.”

– Dr. Joe Dispenza (from “What the Bleep” doc)

I interpret that as saying an addiction is nothing more than a learned behavior—a habit/belief—a way of living that one refuses (consciously or subconsciously) to re-program.

Only the one addicted can choose to re-program the emotional high the addiction brings with an emotional high that would actually be beneficial. Rather than looking at it as denying oneself the “feel good,” maybe it would help to look at it as displacing the devolutionary “faux feel good” brought on by an external with an evolutionary “natural feel good” that comes from the internal.

The addiction—“the feel good” surge—is actually an emotional biochemical release that happens in the brain. As it initially occurs within, only from within can it be re-programmed (overcome).

Breaking any addiction starts with awareness of the problem as well as with surrender. Eventually leading to overcoming. This is a quite simplified way to state it, of course. AA/Al-Anon’s 12 Steps and literature are worth looking into for more detail. You work the program, and the program works you.

One thing is certain, only the person with the addiction can decide if/and when they’re ready to release it (to re-program their behavior (habits/beliefs)).

And let us all remember, addiction comes in many forms. And it impacts all of us, at some level.

“Judge not, lest ye be judged.”

– Jesus, the Christ

Thinking is about conscious intention (ex: perspective). Feeling is about high vibe emotions (ex: gratitude). Action is about aligning what I say with what I do (ex: choosing integrity over hypocrisy). This is the trinity that progresses life through time and space.

*Speaking of time, click here for an experiment from 2020.

EXPERIMENT: Let’s Break Something!

Throwing dishes against a wall may be a little more exciting than breaking well-ingrained mental patterns, but I’m talking about the latter. I wanted to challenge my brain and give it a work-out. So, for the first full week of February, I made a conscious effort to break my daily routine by using my opposite hand for tasks. I tied a ribbon on my ring fingers before going to bed to serve as a reminder upon waking. I discovered…

• Brushing my teeth was awkward, but by the end of the week it greatly improved.

• Buttering my morning toast, on the other hand, was quite difficult. And my dexterity didn’t seem to improve much as the week progressed. I came to conclude the more finesse for the task, the more lacking in skill was I. The right hand was quite impatient and desired to tell the left hand “move over pal, I’ve got it from here.” But I did my best to resist its tyranny. 😏

• When I first sat at my desk, I wondered if keyboards are harder to get used to for lefty’s. I mean they had special scissors in kindergarten. And boy, did I want to use them—there was just something about those special scissors!

• Though I was impressed with my writing ability—only twice as slow and a solid 3rd grade legibility—I let left-handed writing slide. I write long-hand every day and the goal of the experiment was to break patterns and increase awareness, not pull my hair out. 🤯

Overall, the week went quite well. As long as I remembered, that is. Even with ribbons on my fingers, it didn’t take long for those to go unnoticed. But in general, most things were more annoying than hard. And I actually think with practice I could get used to much of it. My left hand was a good sport, and this was an easier experiment than I expected. So much so, I’m beginning to wonder if I could be ambidextrous. Many times I did things with my left hand that I would have expected to use my right hand for. But maybe we all do that.

The hands made a pretty good tag team, even when working as opposites. And interesting enough, thinking back on my younger years, I remember picking up my Aunt Deb’s* guitar when I was about 7 and she said, “no, turn it this way.” I had been holding it like a lefty.

*she’s actually my cousin, but she’s the age of my parents so when I was young I thought she was my aunt.

I’m also goofy foot for board sports, but regular foot in starting blocks. And I’ve heard that the dominant side of your body is a bit larger than the non-dominant side. I’ve always been backward there too. My left hand and left foot are each a bit larger. I can’t even wear heels without an ankle strap because it’s a big enough difference the heel slips on my right foot, which is a total bummer because that greatly limits my choice of fabulous heals! Tho since 2020, and working from home, my shoe choice now tends to be flip flops or house slippers.

All said and done, this was quite a fun experiment, and with a little more practice—maybe I’ll join my elementary nephews when they have penmanship homework—someday I could claim ambidextrous, right? Or should I say, “left?” #NerdAlert 🤓

My kindergarten self is beaming, “told you so!”

As I was typing this month’s experiment, I remembered “Bizarro World,” Seinfeld

Well, it’s now a couple minutes later. I looked it up and that’s not the episode I was thinking (which was actually called “The Bizarro Jerry”). Tho it’s still relevant in a way, I was thinking of “George and the Opposite.”

Seinfeld, good times! 😆

Here’s to breaking patterns and living aware!

Cheerio,
Angel

HAPPY FEBRUARY 29!

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